you are my medicines

that day when you changed my blue sky into the lavender haze
i still remember when you called my name and i told every story that you wanted to hear
still remember the day when i pushed you but you still came into my life
i should be thankful for your presence
thank you for being 250mg of depakote
for taking care of me like a warm hug
when midnight comes, thank you for being a 50mg of sertraline
taking away my sadness
you're like alprazolam, keeping me calm
but if someday you leave me
can i live without you?
— surabaya (2023)