you are my medicines

An illustration by me (2014)

that day when you changed my blue sky into the lavender haze

i still remember when you called my name and i told every story that you wanted to hear

still remember the day when i pushed you but you still came into my life

i should be thankful for your presence

thank you for being 250mg of depakote

for taking care of me like a warm hug

when midnight comes, thank you for being a 50mg of sertraline

taking away my sadness

you're like alprazolam, keeping me calm

but if someday you leave me

can i live without you?

— surabaya (2023)